Do you think? It strikes me "Christian" is not a term natural to you. Are you burning out? An idle question: Which comes first in inportance to you, clean air to breath or the lungs with which to breath it. An individual is capable of unbelievable kindness and thoughtfulness toward another, but personally, I'd rather see less people and cleaner air. This doesn't need to make sense does it? Don't be discouraged. You'll find glimpses of your humanity here and there.